You know that old saying that if you are a boat and you’re not heading in any one direction, then you’re floating off into any direction?
I guess we always feel like we can just press pause on things and come back when we’re ready to deal with them. And maybe that’s true in some cases. But in most things, at least in the important things, I have found that life certainly is like that boat analogy. If I try to press pause on something and come back to it later, my boat has gone completely off course.
That’s why my word for both 2018 and 2019 was and is “intentional.”
I am not going to lie. Being intentional is exhausting. It means that everything needs to be planned and strategic and for a purpose. You can’t just coast through these things — you have to be willing to do the heavy lifting and work for long periods of time in order to get to the final destination.
Specifically, I am continuing to work on being more intentional in the areas of my spiritual life, my marriage and my parenting. In 2019, I have decided that I am also going to focus on self-care.
In 2017, I realized that if I let these areas coast for a bit, then things would go terribly awry. My relationship with Lord lacked true intimacy. My relationship with my husband was sometimes distant and strained. My relationships with my kids tended to be impatient. I wasn’t happy with where I was in these areas at all. So, last year I chose to practice intentionality and to really do these relationships on purpose. And goodness, it has been good. And it has been ridiculously draining. At the end of the hard day, I want to shut off. But instead, I am forcing myself to read books with the littles and have marriage mentoring. At 6 am, I want to press snooze on my alarm, but I’m choosing to roll out of bed and have some sort of quiet time before everyone wakes up. I’m making strides, tiny little ones, minute even! But they are consistent and that’s what is important.
I have not mastered sailing this boat yet, but I know it’s worth it. It’s worth keeping the engine on and steering into the wind to get to the sweet spot of true intimacy and joy with the Lord and my family. I know I still have quite the way to go, but heck, I am going to give it my all to get there!
What about you? Do you have a word for the year?? Share yours in the comments!